I've been re-evaluating my life as the year draws to a close and some changes will have to be made. A lot has happened since the last time I updated this blog, but I only really write when i need to sort out some thoughts...
First off, my ex-roommate got a job in Tahoe working as a cook for the Ritz-Carlton hotel. For those who don't know, it's one of the best hotels ever. On top of getting this job, he gets to travel after 6 months. Even though I'm happy for him, I kind of miss him. Either way, him moving out has also given me a reason to leave (orbe kicked out!). It's not too bad, but this means I have to find another roommate. I'm so used to living with close friends, and this transition to living with a pair that I'm not as close to kind of scares me...It's ok though...I'm a big boy. I have handled a lot worse. I dread this apartment hunt endeavor that I will have to go on.
I will be taking a my first chem course since I left Solano last spring semester. I'm pretty nervous, but now I will start to dip into my major on a serious note...I have started researching scholarships and internships so I can go in. I'm loving the opportunities being presented to me on this tip. This guy Paul has told me about an internship for the summer. I may be pretty excited to have a chem job for the summer. My growth in dance has been so amazing. I've been trainin for a year and I'm making drastic steps every day. Unfortunately, I have had to do a lot of it on my own lately. My group is on a page than I am and I think it may be time to leave. There are a few opportunities that have presented themselves, and I think that I need to make this next move for me when it comes to dance. I love my PP fam to death (like seriously), but it may be time for me to move on and start building on what they gave me. ya know....Now that I understand how to work as a group member, I need to go somewhere where I can understand myself as a dancer and artist.
Even though I said i would start dating last year, I gave that up up months and I'm still fighting off the repercussions...lol. I would like to start dating again soon. I'm scared,because I really don't like people or trust anyone. I'll work on that too! Just saying that my life is moving forward and most decisions are making me happy, but some aren't You gotta sacrifice when you want something bad enough. I just hope everything goes over well.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
Post Birthday
Ha, so I'm officially 23 years old as of april 1st...
I'm not sure if I'm excited. It's weird, because I think this is around the time that I should be grown up...But I still feel like I'm a child to all the grown ups. I even find it hard to believe that high school kids look up to me... Thats strange!
I don't know. Wether it's dancing or life in general, I think I will always see myself as a kid in training. I'm pretty happy with where I am, but time seems to go by too fast.
Dating still sucks, but whatever. Men are stupid! lol...
This past week, my friend TJ came from Florida to visit me for my birthday. Now TJ comes from Panama City, FL. I can say Panama City is a fun area for Spring Break and beautiful beaches, but I'm not fond of living there. TJ isn't either. It's not a place where he feels like he can truly find himself. After being here for only a week, he is ready to move here to Sacramento. If he really goes through with it I think it will be good for him...I'm excited to see how everything goes...
OMG I have a fro hawk
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Dating....
So life this year has just been completely inspiring as far as dance goes.
As far as school goes, I have been completely slacking...I'm getting myself together over the course of this weekend. I didn't go to school today, and I had a quiz and a lab to to do, sothat's not going to look good on me...
The point of today's blog is to really get into what I have been going through in terms of dating. I finally got some balls and tried to start online dating.It started off being exactly what I thought it was going to be. So far, no one has proved me wrong. There are too many men that truly believe that sex is just something people do. Others base their whole relationship on it.
By now I have went on dates with two people:
disclaimers:
-I have a bad habit of letting things happen even if I'm not really feeling the vibe
-If someone tries to have sex with me on the first date (if it happens or not), I don't want to see again after.
I met up with the first guy at a bar, which isn't too bad. Alcohol helps people loosen up sometimes, so I didn't really think anything of it. When I got there, he wanted to get high. After two drinks, this guy was feeling himself a little too much and he just started trying to put moves on me. So we go back to my place, because for some reason I thought we could really watch a movie and he wants to have sex, we almost got started and then he says, "I'm HIV+."
So that was a no go. He tried to call the next day and I didn't answer for awhile. Eventually I did and we met up for coffee. Honestly at this point, I could care less if i ever saw him again, but I just tried it anyway just to see if we were at all compatible when sex, alcohol, and weed weren't factors. I ended up learning that even though he was a nice guy, his lifestyle would never match mine. To him, being gay is like a party. To me, it's just another random fact about me.
I'm sorry I was rambling! The point of this story is, we couldn't last a whole without him trying to get in my pants. My second date was like that too! We were suppose to chill listen to music and juchill, then all of sudden it was all about sucking me off! I wish I was straight sometimes so I could just establish a friendship with whoever before they try to have sex with me. I think gay men just assume that since men get horny they all want sex. I would rather not waste my talents on a waste of time... arrghh! This dating thing is going to be a lot tougher than i thought.
As far as school goes, I have been completely slacking...I'm getting myself together over the course of this weekend. I didn't go to school today, and I had a quiz and a lab to to do, sothat's not going to look good on me...
The point of today's blog is to really get into what I have been going through in terms of dating. I finally got some balls and tried to start online dating.It started off being exactly what I thought it was going to be. So far, no one has proved me wrong. There are too many men that truly believe that sex is just something people do. Others base their whole relationship on it.
By now I have went on dates with two people:
disclaimers:
-I have a bad habit of letting things happen even if I'm not really feeling the vibe
-If someone tries to have sex with me on the first date (if it happens or not), I don't want to see again after.
I met up with the first guy at a bar, which isn't too bad. Alcohol helps people loosen up sometimes, so I didn't really think anything of it. When I got there, he wanted to get high. After two drinks, this guy was feeling himself a little too much and he just started trying to put moves on me. So we go back to my place, because for some reason I thought we could really watch a movie and he wants to have sex, we almost got started and then he says, "I'm HIV+."
So that was a no go. He tried to call the next day and I didn't answer for awhile. Eventually I did and we met up for coffee. Honestly at this point, I could care less if i ever saw him again, but I just tried it anyway just to see if we were at all compatible when sex, alcohol, and weed weren't factors. I ended up learning that even though he was a nice guy, his lifestyle would never match mine. To him, being gay is like a party. To me, it's just another random fact about me.
I'm sorry I was rambling! The point of this story is, we couldn't last a whole without him trying to get in my pants. My second date was like that too! We were suppose to chill listen to music and juchill, then all of sudden it was all about sucking me off! I wish I was straight sometimes so I could just establish a friendship with whoever before they try to have sex with me. I think gay men just assume that since men get horny they all want sex. I would rather not waste my talents on a waste of time... arrghh! This dating thing is going to be a lot tougher than i thought.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Jill Scott is BOMB!
I wish all of the famous female artists had the edge that this woman has!
Oh yeah, I have a routine comin soon!
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